Blessings are where you look for them.

I know it seemed odd, when my brother had cancer, I said sometimes there can be blessings come from it. I choose to look for whatever God has for me, no matter how small.

In the short time we have known about Evan's cancer, I am already seeing blessings. First of all, the show of support has been overwhelming! Any thoughts I had that there is no human kindness left in the world has been removed.

I have been passing messages on to Evan that are being sent to me. To hear his voice quiver, not because of being scared, but because of feeling loved, is such a gift that you all have given to him and to this mama. I am truly grateful. He has asked for sometime why he does not get any more cards and letters than he does. I try to explain how busy everyone is and not let it get to him. I believe he was feeling like he could disappear and no one would notice. But now, he realizes that people do love and care for him. If you are a parent, you know the kindest thing you can do for someone is to do something for their child.

                                          


It has been a blessing to have him lifted up in so many prayers. Even if nothing has changed about his situation or his disease, if he has smiled to himself one time thinking of the love from everyone, I say "AMEN"!

As a parent, for a while now I have had to hear some pretty bad things. You hear things thru the grapevine that others have said about your child. Again, I know he has made mistakes, but he is still my son. I think of it like a God/Sinner relationship. No matter how much we do wrong He will always forgive us and lift us up. It has been a Blessing to receive stories and memories from people of the Evan they remember. It has been so good to see others see the beautiful heart that I know.


                                        
Even the odd circumstances of discovering the cancer are being looked at as a blessing now. 

I am just taking it hour by hour and searching everywhere I can in this dark time for those blessings that I know God has in store for us.

Thank you to everyone who shared Evan's story. It was shared and read over 2000 times the first 24 hours. If that's not God?

Booter, I love you bigger than the sky!

Until next time......

Tammy